is it OVER?

Thursday, January 31, 2008

things had happened. i can't undo it. i try to do something after i clear my thoughts. i try to reach out to you but you step backwards. 1 minute of cold shoulder i can bare but 30 minutes of such thing. i deicde to stop moving.

today we saw each other, there is no linkage between us. No common language. i don't find what u say as interesting as before. maybe i got enough of those.

you once wrote i'm the one who start to drift away but i bare a different view. i think you drift away without realising it at all. i did metion to you but u said it's becos no one can entertain her other than you. then what else can i said. you said & wrote someone replaced you in the friendship that we both once treasure so much. before today i really don't think so and i don't even want to think so. Cos i refuse to replace you.

sadly Now i really think i should face this and start thinking do you really worth the place in my life. you are too persistent in the thoughts/ things u want and blaming other people from your own view.

you use to told me i don't care about friends around me. i'm not the one who keep friends but make friends. i'm not the one who will treasure friednship. haha maybe you are right. in that case i really don't understand why i have very close friends who stand beside me all this years and are still supporting and loving me unconditionally.

i think you can repalce me with her who u always said she knows you better and can understand and care for u more than i do. since someone can do so much better than me. i'm willingly to give up this term "Best" in the relationship that we shared for years. maybe this should end when poly ends too as like u always said i don't look at the people besides me. i'm self-centre. i was never the best and always the worst so dump this "Best" friend of yours.

Let us just be Friend. maybe Hi. Bye friend will be enough :) with you capability i believe you can always find friends of your liking. anyway thanks for the time we shared.

to "once" a dearest friend of mine

words in bewteen " " is pending for now on my side
Posted by beetle at 5:23 AM

welcome to the new year

Tuesday, January 08, 2008

let's see wat i did on the last day of 2007.
didn't go home
stayover at jos place with , weix, zr,feng, eileen and boyfriend
played some really fun game and make a fool of myself
drink "voka" with orange juice ( surprisingly i wasn't drank just kinda of high)
played mahjong
countdown

*did i get the voka spelling rite?

my wish for 2008
WISH ALL MY WISHES COME TRUE
Posted by beetle at 4:08 AM