Him

Saturday, June 03, 2006

i saw him today. in cap. very blur~~ cos i didn't wear my glasses. how i hope my eye-sight could be perfect again so that i can at least see him clearly for the 'last'-time. (i hope i'll never see him again! at least in this way i can forget him. it hurts alot.) From a far he looks and feels as attractive as before.
Why must fate make fun of me again and again. whenever i decide to give-up. fate brings him back to me again.. standing at the nearest place where i can reach yet don't dare to do so. i hate this. i try to avoid to stop the feeling of 'liking/loving' coming back again~~ but it failed terribely. Now the feeling is back, i can't stop it. it's at the stage of accelerating. i didn't talk to him at the dinner and now he is offline. i lost my chance again. Online again~~ wat the hell. i still don't dare to chat with him.
i saw him turn his face away from me when he actually saw me. i wasn't lookin at him at the first place i was on the phone with my fren. i think he thought i was lookin at him ba~~ then he quickly turn away. i only realise it was him when he make the swift turn. (the movement too abnormal) He is avoiding me too. at least it's a good sign. hinting me not to be stubborn again. just let him go. He can never be mine. i will never wish him happiness cos i'm too selfish. sorry.
Wen shi jian, qing wei he wu?
Posted by beetle at 11:59 AM